Sunday, June 12, 2011

This is the Stuff Fairy Tales are Made Of…

Dear Boaz,

I want to tell you a story...

   Once upon a time there was a man named Benjamin and a woman named Gregoria. They lived in neighboring villages and were introduced to each other through their families. One of Gregoria’s sisters was married to a cousin who was close with Benjamin. They became friends and eventually started to fall in love. But unbeknownst to Gregoria,  a marriage was being arranged for her.
   Now in those days, marriages were arranged by the elders of the village one belonged. One of Gregoria’s uncles was an elder of her village and decided to arrange for her a marriage to a very wealthy man.  When Gregoria found out she would be married to a man she didn’t love, let alone barely knew, she ran frantically to tell Benjamin what was happening. Distraught, she told him that if he really loved her that he would find a way to stop the marriage from going through. Benjamin was quite in love with her and was repulsed by the prospect of his love marrying another man. So Benjamin consulted his father and together they devised a plan to rescue Gregoria from her arranged marriage.
   Benjamin went back to Gregoria and told her the plan of escape. He would come get her during the night a few days before she was to be married and they would elope. He planned to bring his cousin and his father along with him. He told her to be ready and keep a sharp look out from her bedroom window for three riders on horses. She would know that it would be them coming to get her because one of them would be on a white horse.
   The night of the rescue, she went to her parents and told them everything that was about to happen. They had no objections because they disliked the man her uncle had matched her with. They were also very aware of the love she had for Benjamin and saw no reason to stop the both of them from being together. With their blessing she waited.
    She waited and waited, eyes straining in the dark, searching for any sign of a rider on a white horse. Soon, in the distance she began to see the outline of three men on horses.  As they came closer to her window, she could see that it was none other than Benjamin riding on the white horse. They were armed with swords on their sides in case anyone caught wind of their plan and someone came to stop them. But they found no trouble and Gregoria climbed out of her window with her belongings , rode away and stayed with her sister for the night. The next day, Benjamin and Gregoria were married at the village hall.
   The best stories are the ones that are true. I love telling my grandparents’ love story. They were happily married for 58 years before they died, 11 months apart during my middle school years. They had 7 children and their youngest is my mom.


    On the days that I feel cynical and feel like we’re never going to happen, stories like this one gives me hope that someday you’ll be willing to fight for me and love me enough to do whatever it takes to be with me for the rest of your life. And I’m not really expecting you to ever literally be on a white horse or dress like a knight in shining armor… but if you want, I probably wouldn’t object ;-D Regardless, I think our story will be just as beautiful as a fairy tale because of course we’ve got the Author of the ultimate love story writing ours.

Ecclesiastes 3:11 says "He has made everything beautiful in its time..."

Love,
Ruth

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Sometimes poets say it best, if not better than what I can come up with myself...

Dear Boaz,

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
                                    i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows

(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)


-e.e. cummings



Do you think telling you that I miss you, that you cross my thoughts more than I'm willing to admit will ever get old? Will you ever get tired of hearing me say those things? Sometimes I'm afraid to write because I feel and think I sound so crazy, writing to and missing someone I haven't even met yet. Someday you'll know the ferocity and intensity of the devotion I have for you already and can only hope every letter written doesn't come off as completely psychotic...


Sometimes...
I'm afraid to write...
To write means revealing myself...
Revealing myself can show, oh, so much vulnerability...
Vulnerability, can be unnerving...


Love,
Your Ruth

Sunday, June 5, 2011

Persistence Pays Off




Dear Boaz,

Something I've been learning lately is how God relentlessly pursues us until we can't help but surrender. He's  jealous for my love and wants it exclusively  for Himself. Jesus paid the ultimate sacrifice, showed that I am worth dying for and in return I can't help but to be completely and totally devoted to loving and serving Him with all that I am and have. And when I'm tempted to be and am at times just too wrapped up in myself and other things, He swoops in to remind me that He's the only one who matters. I'm praying the Lord keeps us caught up in Him completely from now until the time we meet. (And all the time after that.)

Yours Always,
Ruth

Friday, June 3, 2011

For the days my patience is as thin as a Girl Scout mint cookie...


 Dear Boaz,

The gnawing knot of longing
surfaces now and again,
Overwhelming my thoughts,
Stirring up questions
that keep me up
Late into the night
wondering:
   What you're doing
   Where you are
   When I can finally say:
        "Hello, it's nice to meet you..."
   How it'll happen is up to His perfect timing
         But when it does, then we'll know
   Why.


"For God is my witness, whom I serve with my spirit in the gospel of His Son, that without ceasing I make mention of you always in my prayers,  making request if, by some means, now at last I may find a way in the will of God to come to you.  For I long to see you, that I may impart to you some spiritual gift, so that you may be established— that is, that I may be encouraged together with you by the mutual faith both of you and me." -Romans 1:9-12

Love,
Ruth